On the outside you see me as a girl who has brown hair, brown eyes and a perfect smile (or so I think) but like any person we try to get to know each other because my eye and hair color cover about 80% of the world’s population. Now I could say that I’m a fun person, I love to kick back and chill with my best friends and family and I try as hard as I can to be true to myself and everyone, but I think that people have the right to hold their own opinion of me. I can say all of that stuff, but it’s ultimately you who passes judgment onto me.
However, there is one thing that I hold myself accountable in EVERY relationship that I have. Sometimes I fail at this; some people even find it too pushy, others don’t want to hear it, others can’t get enough. I am a Christian. I try reading the bible as often as I can, I pray every night, I pray on every occasion. I will not deny my faith and you can bet your pretty face, I would die for my God. I try to live my life by the bible and I try acting the way Jesus acted. However, I do FAIL more than I would like to. I have made mistakes, I have knowingly denied doing the right thing, and I have let my emotions get the better of me. I have sinned but I have made myself right with God.
I know I’m not perfect, not even close…to the world’s standard. To my God I am perfect. I remember that every day and every day I find people, objects, and ideas that try to tell me otherwise. I’ve been through many fires and I’ve come out with scars and burns but I’ve continued to walk forward towards a bigger prize. I’ve been the friend that has hurt others and I have numerous people that have hurt me. I have done the unpopular choice because my faith says it isn’t right, (and by the way that’s not God who chose for me, that was my own moral standing) and I’ve been cruelly made fun of for it. I try to be the friend that’s always there for you but like I said I’m not perfect in the eyes of the world. But I don’t care about this world; it’s the eyes of God that I’m most concerned about.
There are times that I have been hopeless; there are times when I have been blessed by God so abundantly. I have been blessed by God with two amazing friends, two amazing sisters, one amazing brother and mentors and friends that I couldn’t live without. Life isn’t supposed to be perfect, far from it. I pray for the strength to fight the spiritual battle that we all face, because this war isn’t of flesh and blood. I pray that you stand and fight for the side of Honor in God, because the war is upon us, but we have already won!
So here it is…secret one. Right out in the open for all to see. I am not ashamed or embarrassed. I pray that all who read this will know that I am praying for you too. God bless!
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." ~ John 16:33
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